Oh Hey There

Yeah. So I’m still around. I’m just busy with that job that I was looking for. Turns out that my major in Costume and Makeup Design can at least get me a job working in the cosmetics depart of Macy’s as an Oncall. Which is sort of like a Cosmetics Nomad. Not affiliated with any one counter but able to go between them all. I basically cover people’s shifts, pick up the extra ones that aren’t assigned to people and do a lot of grunt work while looking fabulous.

I got my AA degree finally. Which feels nice. Took forever but I didn’t give up and I got the damn thing. So now I have a degree in Costume and Makeup Design. So there. Take that world!

I am engaged to my boyfriend of six years and we are getting married this coming July. Super excited about that. Like it’s so cool I can’t even begin to explain how cool it is. Planning a wedding is fun, exhausting and daunting but we are getting there.

I worked at a Mortuary for a bit as a paid intern. That was super cool and only solidified my desire to become a Mortician. After the wedding the next plan is to move to Sacromento where I will go to school to get a degree in Funeral Sciences so I can do my apprenticeship and eventually get my license. I’m really looking forward to that.

On a sadder note I did loose my kitties. Mama died from a urinary tract infection that sort of snuck up on us a couple years ago. Dante died a few months ago after 15 years of love and devotion. I miss them both terribly but such is life.

I still LARP. I still work at Haunt. I don’t do much Cosplay anymore due to time and money constraints and also the negative changes in the culture. Just not my scene anymore. I’ve started a new blog called the Cinemasochist where I review really bad movies so you don’t have to watch them. I’m still working on my first post but when I do it I’ll let y’all know.

For now though it’s a steady grind of retail work and wedding planning and dealing with family stuff. I’m still alive. I don’t intend for that to change anytime soon.

I’ll try to be more active. Maybe. Probably.

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Posted by on May 20, 2016 in Uncategorized



Today I want to talk about one of my hobbies. LARP, or Live Action Role Playing.

What is live action role playing? It’s kind of hard to put it in a neat little nut shell but I’ll try. Live action role playing is essentially a form of group story telling using impromptu acting. Wherein players create characters with full backgrounds and personalities and interact with one another both verbally and physically. All actions and conversations happen in real time and create an ongoing story. Narrators or storytellers act as game masters, creating plots and non player characters (NPCs) for the players to interact with and react to. Thus adding to the experience. That being said, LARP is one of those things that you will never fully understand til you try it.

Full immersion LARP is a type of live action role playing in which you stay in character the whole time, only going out of character in emergencies and the like. It is usually done over an extended period of time, like a weekend and often uses simulated combat using foam covered fauxcimilies of weapons called boffers.

Or we could go with how I usually explain it to my coworkers, which is: “I run around the woods in Victorian garb pretending to be someone I’m not and hitting people with foam covered sticks.” Which of course makes me sound like a lunatic.

Either way, it’s super fun. It gives me a different perspective on the world around me and allows me to try different sorts of communication and decision making methods in a safe environment surrounded by like-minded people who support me by doing the same. Plus! I get to make costumes for it. Oh so many fancy Victorian costumes. Costumes I will soon have pictures of to share with you.

Also I’m the safety officer for our game. Which means that I basically tell people not to do foolish things that will get them hurt and I oversee first aide and make sure the boffers are safely constructed.

Our next session is coming up at the end of the month and I’m super excited about it. (In case you couldn’t tell by my gushing.)

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Posted by on March 20, 2013 in Uncategorized


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I’m Still Here

Hey there! In case you were wondering what happened to me I’m still alive. I’ve just been super busy and totally forgot to post.
The two things taking up my time have been school and work. Yes, that’s right, I got a job! I’ll get to that in a sec.
School: With only three classes left in my current AA Degree program I’ve been jugging away at it. All three classes are math. One that I actually need and the other two being prerequisites for that class. I took one this summer, which ends this Thursday. So far I’ve got an A in the class. I’m not sure how I’ve done this. It mystifies me. Math has always been the bully that beats me up and takes my emotional and academic lunch money but this summer I seem to have figured out how to defeat it.

Of course that’s just the one class. The next one I have to take is going to be harder. Not only academically but also to get into. I tried to take it before, 4 times, but I kept having to bail on it half way through. So my reluctance to admit that maybe I wasn’t up to snuff and I needed to take the class before it has made it so that I have to petition to take this time around… now that I’m ready to. Hopefully I’ll be able to. If they won’t let me I’ll just go to a different college and then transfer it back because there’s no way I’m not going to get it done. Even if it means I have to take some convoluted route around the bureaucratic red tape.

After that I’ll be able to take the class I really need and then I will graduate in the Spring. Which feels weird since it’s taken me twelve years or so to finally get this far due to family and health issues and all sorts of other nonsense.

Work: As of July 7th I work at Macy’s as an on-call in the cosmetics department. Which is good since I create my own schedule and I’ve done similar work at the costume shop. My co-workers are super awesome and fun to work with and I’m guaranteed a pay check for my work which is nice. I also get commission on top of my hourly wage. So that’s a nice little bonus. I am finding it a bit hard to get into the swing of juggling work, school and a social life again but I’ll figure it out. It’s like riding a bicycle. You never really loose it you just forget it for a while.
Anyhoo, that’s it for me right now. I’ll try to have more goodies for you later.


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Posted by on July 24, 2012 in Random Stuff


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R.I.P ProfessorEvil

It’s amazing how sometimes life just smacks you in the face. Today when I signed on to Face Book I didn’t know that the fist thing that I would see is an announcement that one of my friends had passed away. If I had I’m pretty sure I would have still signed on but I’m realistic like that.

My friends name was Rik “Professor Evil” Cary. Though he and I didn’t work the same haunt we had many  mutual friends and many of the same interests. He was always a supportive and fun loving guy and everyone who knew him will miss him. He was the kind of guy who was always willing to give you advice whether it be about how to make a cotton candy cocoon for a haunt, how to make a dress manikin out of duct tape or just how to get through school without killing your classmates.

Part of the reason this hits me so hard is that just a couple of weeks ago we were happily chatting about our next haunts and how we were going to try to set up a sort of event that will help all the home haunters associated with CalHaunts in the area see each other’s haunts. Which is something no one ever gets to do because we’re always busy with our own.

And now he’s gone. Which feels really weird. I won’t lie to you, I am currently crying as I type. It’s very strange because while Rik and I talked many times over the internet we never met in person. But I cared about him and considered him a friend none the less. If I weren’t still reeling from the shock of this loss I might write some deeper thoughts on both loss and how friendship cane occur over any sort of medium but right now I think I’m gonna take some time for myself to greive and to remember a very awesome person who is no longer with us but will always be in the thoughts and hearts of those who’s lives he touched.

If you knew Rik or you are familar with his haunt ProfesssorEvil’s Nightmare than you know how greatly the haunt community and just our every day lives are changed by this news.

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I <3 Lou Reads the Internet or The Great Magnet Adventure

It’s been a while and I do apologize. I’ve been busy with school (kicking ass in my World Philosophers on Death class!! Go me! Ahem!) and thus have not had much time or presence of mind to write anything worth letting the entire internet read. So today’s is a very special edition.

Back Story:

My boyfriend, Tom, is a huge fan of Lou Reads the Internet For You. If you have never heard of it it’s a podcast where a lovely gent named Lou reads… well… the internet and records it. He often finds strange and somewhat unusual sites and forums to read from. Some are fetish forums, others are political forums… you get the idea. If you need more info check it out at  . I think you will be amused. I know I am. In fact I am also a huge fan. Anyways, I am going off on a tangent. That is loosly related to the title of this segment but… again I digress.

So Tom is a huge fan and he had downloaded the then most recent podcast and while looking at the picture that was used as the thumbnail he did a double take and then promptly messaged me.

“Did you ever do a vampire costume in a red dress?” He asked.

“Yes. Why?”

“I think Lou Reads used a picture of you for his latest pod cast.”

So I checked and low and behold… there I was… staring me right in the face. The picture that had been used was a picture of me in my Carmila costume. You remember that one. I posted about it a while back. So I decided to post a comment on the site.

Now some of you might think that I was all “Oh hell no! How dare you use a picture on me for a segment about a forum with people who actually think they’re vampires.” But… Really… I wasn’t. I was kind of flattered really and figured that Lou wasn’t implying that I thought I was a vampire of some such silliness like that. Later I received and email from him thanking me for being cool and offering both me and Tom magnets. With the caveat that we send him pictures of the magnets in their new home environment.

A few days later I received an envelope… handed to me by my very confused mother. And who could blame her… look at it…

I love this envelope. It makes me giggle every time I see it. I adored Lou before this and the fact he took the time to draw a picture on the envelope endured him even more to me… and I’ve never even met the guy.

As I said I’ve been busy. So I didn’t get the pictures of the magnets like I promised and I feel bad. So to make up for it the rest of the segment will be the pictures I’ve taken in my quest for the perfect spot for my Lou Reads the Internet For You magnet.

One would think that the refrigerator is the perfect place for a magnet but I am a rebel. I went with the hood above the stove for my first shot. The idea of cooking with Lou there to watch over my food like some weird internet guardian angel amused me.

My Magnet hanging out over the stove

But I thought… I could totally do better than this. So I moved on to some place else. A place one never sees or expects a magnet. The Bathroom!

Needless to say my family found this creepy and I worried for the magnets safety as I’m not sure how water resistant it is. So… onto the next unlikely place… the water heater!

I liked it but I decided to try it on another spot…

It was okay… but I still thought I hadn’t exahusted all my options. Though I did love the “WARNING” and the “FOR YOUR SAFETY READ BEFORE LIGHTING” stuff. So onto the next option… living things. For this I tried my nephew and my cats. On the off chance that one of them was metal. With disturbing results.

My nephew turned out to be a cyborg… and I’m sad to say that his grades have gone down since I introduced a magnet to his head. I’ve been told it’s not permanent.

Mama Kitty turns out to be a robot cat. Which explains all the pancakes ( If you dont’ get this joke please watch the video located here: )

Dante as it turns out is not made of metal. But he really seemed to like the magnet. Once he relinquished it after his nap it was onto other options.

I placed the magnet by my bottle of Scotch but I felt kind of like I was being judged every time I went for a drink with Lou peeking out around the bottle so I decided to go with the one place that seemed like a natural spot.

I kind of like it on my white board the best. I should ask Lou if there are some good sites that can tell me where I can become a vampire and see if he has suggestions for the second part of the plan. The profit part is easy.

That’s it for my fangirly geekery with a magnet. I hope you enjoyed it. I know I did. My family just sort of stared at me and wondered why i was wandering a round with a magnet and taking pictures of it.

Diclaimer: No cats, robot cats, cyborgs, nephews, water heaters, bottles of booze, bath tubs, stoves or anything else was harmed in this adventure. If they had been I certainly wouldn’t have put photo documentation up on the internet >.>


Posted by on May 9, 2012 in Random Stuff


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Beauty, the Beast, and Motivational Posters

Lately I’ve been seeing a lot of debate over the various picture collections depicting a group of very thin women and another group of curvy but not obese women and comparing the two. Usually in some way indicating that the thin women are not as attractive as the heavier built women. I’ve seen a lot of different responses to these. Ranging from some people who agree with it, those who are insulted by it (both thin women, curvy women and men alike) and those who are not insulted but would like to see something less biased.

I am not a skinny woman. Nor am I overweight. I’m probably better described as curvy. I also have horrible self image. The first time I saw one of the picture groups that declare curvy women to be more attractive than abnormally thin women I admit I was pleased. I like the idea that someone was boasting the idea of a healthy looking body. But then I saw all the complaints and while some were very badly written and way too overzealous I will admit that some also had a point.

Recently I saw an article where someone had taken classical paintings of nudes and used photoshop to redo the women’s body type to a 21st century standard. Many people were outraged. Not, because he was making classic paintings look bad but because he was implying that skinny women were not attractive. I personally didn’t see where this happened. I thought that some of them looked alright where the women where thinner and some didn’t but I didn’t feel any sort of overzealous need to get irate about it. Honestly, I was more distracted by the fact that their head proportions didn’t get changed to match the bodies so it looked a little boble-headish to me.

This got me thinking though, what’s the real issue here? So I’ve been thinking about it and the following is what I’ve come up with.

1: Sometimes things meant to bolster self esteem of one group tear down the self esteem of another group. Therefore, you have to be careful how you present such things. If you want to bolster the esteem of a specific group, destroying that of another isn’t the way to go because that group will retaliate and if the group whom you are trying to help isn’t full of selfish people they will then feel worse for your attempt because it will have hurt others. Thus the original good feelings they had up until they realized that what made them feel bad hurt others will fade into guilt over feeling good about it.

My suggestion is you try to do something that bolsters confidence in your target audience without alienating other audiences. If what you are presenting can be taken out of context by another group and seen as hurtful without trying too hard you might want to try another approach. That being said we all know there are people out there who are just negative people and will get butthurt over anything so you’re bound to piss someone off. My point here is that you should try to bring people up in a way that dose not rely on bringing others down. Don’t compare and contrast the skinny to the not skinny or the black to the white or the apple to the orange. Try to focus on what it is you are trying to point out about the group you want to make feel good. It may be easier to focus on a comparison to the opposite side of the coin but in the end you will end up hurting more than helping.


2: Context matters people! First of all read the captions or the article attached to any picture so you understand what the message that they are trying to get across is. If they are trying to state that curvy women are not well represented in media and are using pictures of very thin super models to illustrate this and then comparing it to an era that had a trend of more voluptuous models that is much different from them saying that a thin body type is unattractive. Whether or not they get the point across is another issue.


3: Beauty is subjective. Health really isn’t. Beauty, as in what is considered attractive is very much a personal thing. You might like thin willowy women or you might like incredibly curvy women. It’s a personal preference much like ones taste in ice cream flavors. Since that is the case you can’t really get mad at someone for having a differing opinion from you on that matter. Some people like tall women. Others like short ones. Some people like hair on a guys chest. Others don’t. Blonde. Brunet. Blue eyes. Green eyes. Large breasts. Small breast. So one and so forth. We all know what we like. Some of us even like a variety of different looks. So don’t get mad over someone stating their preference and don’t get hurt if that preference dose not describe you. It’s not like you’re trying to impress some random weirdo on the internet.

Health… is not a subjective issue on the other hand. Just as there is such a thing as too fat there is such a thing as too thin. An extreme on either end is not good for you and let’s face it there is a precedent for the stereotype of the anorexic model. It’s a highly competitive business that centers around a person’s looks. Both male and female models often suffer from extreme depression, eating disorders and low self image. This is often due to a variety of social and industry expectations of how they should look, what their measurements should be and so on. It’s not a healthy situation and it’s not helping them to point out this flaw in a way that degrades them.


A Humble Solution:

If you are inclined to make motivational images that depict an ideal of beauty and you truly want to help people remember this simple phrase:

Variety is the spice of life.


Don’t focus on one group. Focus on all of them. Why not show a picture of several healthy looking body types and declare all of them equally beautiful? Why not show the fashion industry and the media that you want to see different types of people walking the runways and on tv?

Tell them, “I want to see a 5’2” 165lb model in an amazing Alexander McQueen dress walk down the New York runway arm and arm with a 5’10 135lb model god dammit because they’re both attractive and human beings come in different sizes, shapes and colors! It’s time you were realistic about us, media people!”


Alternatively make a poster declaring each group individually amazing and beautiful but don’t have the poster involve any other group. Just focus on each of them individually. That way they all get their time to shine and no one else gets hurt.


Maybe I’m too much of an optimist but I like to think that the world can be changed if we just try and if we show each other a little bit of respect when it comes to how beautiful we are.




Posted by on April 6, 2012 in Thoughtful Thoughts


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Cosplay: Tira

Me as Tira. Picture taken by Eurobeat King at Fanime 2007

As I’ve said before, I love video games and I love evil people. Though one could argue that Tira isn’t really evil so much as crazy. Regardless I also love the characters with the freaky weird fighting styles and weapons. If I had the body for it I’d probably cosplay as Voldo but that’s another story all together.

Character: Tira

From: Soul Caliber III

Version: Player One in alternate color scheme.

Notes: I was originally going to do this costume in it’s usual green but I couldn’t find a green body suit that didn’t look goofy so I ended up using a black cat suit for the top and some pants that I found at some weird shop at the mall for the bottom. By far the only time I ever bought pre-ripped jeans in my life. Possibly the only time I ever will. The armor was actually cheap plastic roman armor painted and cut up. Add some ribbon, leather ties, a green feather boa and some gloves and you got a costume.

The full costume plus the bladed hula hoop weapon. Sadly the lighting was a little too dark here but you can see the hula hoop at least.

Hardest Part: The damned weapon. That there is a hula hoop with some foam core poster board and a lot of silver duct tape. The wig was also a pain as I started with a green wig, hated it and used a black one and some green hair spray instead.

Favorite Part: The body paint and the make up. I love how it came out.

Hours Spent on it: Probably about twelve.

Cost: Um… hmm… probably less than $100. It was a fairly cheap costume to make.


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